Rust of yesterday

unexpected consequences

Standing still on an isle away

I never imagined I would see the day

My former friend is that you?

You look suprised to see me

After all you put me through

You came with the dawn and gone with the night

You brought me strife ,my biggest fights

my Victory i celebrated alone with no one in sight.

Through the Mirror now we meet

different but the same

Young and old

The Coward and the bold

a published book and a Story untold.

Am I Rust or iron?

The man or whats left of him?

The machine or the force within?

The visiting time is almost over

I think as i watch the black and White frame

On the rusted pages of the old days

Never to Change never to meet

Thank you and Goodbye again.

“You can rest now for I forgive you” I speak out as i close the book and put the blurred photos away.”

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Finding hope online – just start

atomic habits top 5

Did you fall into a plateau state of mind?

You wish to change but are overwhelmed with information ?

Do you seek out constantly webinars, YouTube videos but never take action?

Or Let’s say you do watch it,get your hopes high just to be crushed by the price tag?

Regardless of the reasons, heartbreak, betrayal, job loss it is NOT hopeless.

If you’re at rock bottom or climbing out of it as well as Struggling with relationships, motivation or getting ahead in life

do you notice the patterns that keep appearing?

Quick tip: How you do anything is how you do everything.

If you’re stuck or failing constantly know that it may be because off:

  • lack of focus
  • lack of clarity
  • habits

conditioning etc. Of course there’s more factors but you are responsible for your actions and perspective.

My top 5 for starters

So here are my top 5 audio books to help you put things in perspective.

Links included.Now lets dive in.

1. Atomic Habits by James Clear

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Here you can find a “road map” on how habits are formed and their effect our daily lives.

As well as how to form new ones and keep them and getting rid of the old unhealthy ones.

Also you can visit their website for additional materials at

2. The one thing by Gary Keller

Second-rate work, flooded with emails, obligations,tweets and a hundred different distractions?

Sound like you? Then this may be your choice.

It teaches you how to clear the clutter, get you and keep you on track, get your energy back, how to reduce stress and feeling overwhelmed, complete your tasks and goals and most important doing and finishing what matters the most to you.

3.Cant hurt me by David Goggins

Against all odds. From a depressed, overweight young man with no future to the “hardest man alive”.

His childhood was a nightmare filled with poverty, beatings and predjustice yet he managed to transform his life through self-taught discipline.

He went through hell week more than once, completed his training as a Navy Seal, an Army Ranger, he even went on and set a record on many endurance events.

This book is about his life and shows that most of us use only 40 % of our capabilities, he calls it the 40% rule.

His story also shows a way how anyone CAN push past pain and suffering and achieve more that they believed it was ever possible.

4. No more Mr nice guy by Robert A. Glover

Dr.Robert A. Glover talks in this book about the “Nice Guy Syndrome” and offers also a plan on overcoming it.

Simply put, the “Nice Guy Syndrome” is a dub he put for those who neglect their needs and worth, seek constantly the approval of others, and never express what they truly feel and they also

try too hard to please others first while they grow unhappy and resentful and may lash out at their loved ones.

Some may not even be aware of it.

Here he teaches how to stop seeking constant approval, expressing themselves,getting their needs to be met, embracing their masculinity, have a satisfying sex life and forming meaningful relationships with other men.

5. Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert T. Kiyosaki

This is Roberts story of growing up with his real father and the father of his best friend, his rich dad — and the ways in which they shaped his thoughts about money and investing.

It explains the difference between working for money and having your money work for you.

It teaches what an asset and what a liability is and that a big salary is not a guarantee you’ll be rich.

PS your house is not among the assets.

It also shows what parents should teach their kids about money and why you cannot rely on the school system for it.

PPS Also if you do like the book and want to learn more About making your Money work for you, you can visit the RichDad Summit Held by Robert Kiyosaki himself and several other entrepeneurs. Its a 2 day online summit which you can enter for $1.

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End Notes

There are more but I want to keep it simple. So what do you think of my top 5 for starters?

If you find it useful give it a like or share whichever you prefer.and if you have any thoughts on this please leave it in

the comment section.

weird first draft

“I wish I could Smile now but I can`’t

I wish I was depressed but I ain’t,

I’m awake but sometimes I don’t feel alive.

Been Sitting on the bench far too long

Hidden the fears inside,

Mind sees dark,Heart sees bright.

A world hidden from their sight.

Always here but Always lost. Before I wanted to go at all cost.

Untill I saw what they tried to sell me as the truth was a cheap lie.

I am still the same as before, but now I want to try. “

This is one step to beat indecision.

Even tho you may look like a fool you do it.

Even tho it sucks do it.

The Things on this site I also aplly.

Am I nervous?

If its a bad first draft no worries itll get better over time.

If it comforts you heres one of my older vidz.

Whatever youre trying to do you may look like a fool in one Point…

Just dont stop at the first base youll get better later.

See you soon

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How to renew yourself – Be bold

Its been a while since I wrote something like this.

When you hit a “Plato” kind of state it usually requires more effort to get past it, some give up, some go on.

As this site is about “turning the page” aka improving yourself I had to put this here even though I didn’t feel like it.

And Since I was 3 years in this Hell I thought Id be fitting.

Let’s move on…

Why should I renew myself?

Do you spend all of your time on your job or people that don’t contribute to your or their well-being?

Are you still in relationship with someone who you can’t stand, but cry and despair when they “want” to leave?

Did you get into a project with the best intentions just to get out of it bitter, disappointed or vengeful because someone you trusted made you look like a complete fool?

I recall an old African proverb that says:

“If there is no enemy within the enemy outside can do us no harm.”

Sometimes It just happens that it’s that our options are limited and sometimes the stories we tell ourselves.

Someone can be blind to things that can be so clear to you.

And if someone is going through a hardship, breakup, loss of a job, friend and family member they may need different treatment.

The question alone is the answer, the real question would be “What fruits or weeds Am I growing?”

Or what I like more “Which wolf am I feeding?”

Where do I begin?

After the damage is done what are the options?

If you are grieving sites such as Better-Help, TalkSpace and are one of the options.

Because your bodily health, your energy levels depend also on your inner well-being.

If you’re sick and tired of your current situation, relationship or whatever the case may be

I can guarantee you won’t work out or take care of yourself at all if the words, the insults get too deep.

When developing a persona it not just the surrounding people who affect you it’s your surroundings as well,

and basically what intent, emotion or memory you tie to it.

If you want your energy back you need to go back within and there are people and resources available.

Recovery, renewal goes from the inside-out, your perspective aka mindset is like a root to the tree,

It is the operating system for the computer, and we can leverage it

for example with meta cognitive tools such as the “5 second rule” who can disrupt your current thought pattern so you can do what you have to .

As I get it the idea is to cultivate a habit or a “switch” whenever you need to do something important and you recognize that your thoughts may be talking you outta it, you push the “switch” and engage in the action.

Frankly I felt like a moron the first few times doing it so instead I put on some power metal IE “Sabaton” and while the behavioral pattern is disrupted I got enough momentum for the needed action.

You get the idea.

Maintain the Vision

That midnight snack, that last beer may give momentary pleasure when your day was terrible.

But it’s not just that, the same can be said for almost anything,

I know what it’s like to have a BAD DAY and you don’t want anything to do with it or anything related to it.

When you want to drown that memory that moment by any means at hand or when you can’t you just want to ease the pressure.

You look in a 100 directions instead of the one you need, when it gets so bad you can’t think of anything anymore just on that moment…

So you block all the doors even the ones that hold the solution

It doesn’t have to be like that.

“Where there is no vision the people perish”

King Solomon

Most years I had just the feeling that each time something good is about to happen

something would just pull the carpet from under my feet. I stopped when Ive should’ve kept going.

There was no goal, no vision nothing to move forward to.

At one point or other in life something happens that disrupts the previous patterns in your life,

even if you fix the disaster and go back you’re not really the same as before.

You can be afraid sometimes to move towards the new.

Even resentful to it while staying in your own world.

Maybe you are clinging to what’s left of it because you lack the power to restore it to the way it was.

Whatever it may be, sticking to one thing at a time is just that.

No flash, no easy glory, just a (sometimes aka mostly boring) chore.

Do you want it?

With or without the help?

After the resources have been given to you, after the training, after the blessings it ultimately comes down to you.

It would be preferable if you have the things needed to do the necessary, that you’re self-reliant.

If you aren’t in maintaining your vision, maybe you need a simple push

Or to be re-educated on your beliefs and patterns but

at the end as far as I´ve seen it comes down to you.

Again sites like can provide help and support you need if you have a busy life.

Before I forget, “Atomic Habits” by James Clear gives you clarity and a road map on how habits function and how to make new ones.

Ultimately it’s about character how you grow it, nurture it and the surrounding soil.

Stop looking for quick-fixes, For issues that have been bothering you in the long run, you need long term solutions.

At the end of the tunnel

Maybe you’ll see the light at the end of the tunnel just by looking back.

Or there won’t be any I don’t know.

As in writing this I’m traveling through a tunnel as well.

There might or might not be an end It doesn’t matter, not anymore.

Certain things will happen if you decide to take the path least waked and decide to stay on it.

Yes you may need help, you may need companionship, a partner, someone who’s been to where you want to go.

But your choices will determine if you will be given new opportunities or burning them down.

Before I go, think about this.

A guy stranded on a deserted island,all alone and lost everything with no hope of rescue.

Spends his days catching fish and drinking fermented berries while gazing up the stars.

Did he give up or pushed back on life?

The answer? He fought back.

Because after he lost everything he still had the choice to lay down and grieve or to get up and face a new day.

People come and go as the sea by the shore, what you have it can break, what you posses it can take.

What It cants take, what is yours,is your choice.

Actually I heard something like this from “Dragon Age: Inquisition” ,

but it’s a valuable lesson as well,reminded me of a book from Victor Frankl but ill talk about it in another article.

See ya

Life can be stranger than fiction, and is in my case.

Hope you liked this article, If you agree or disagree with anything share your thoughts in the comments section.

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Till next time.